It is the start of another week and I am filled with the usual dread of the work week. I definitely need a job change. At least hating my job is one consistent feeling in my life.
I think the biggest part about hating my job is feeling disappointed in myself. I had big hopes and dreams for my culinary career but I feel as though I am playing it safe. Stability is something I needed and that was my main reason for getting into this job…but if I want to actually create, I have to do that outside of work but lately I have found myself too exhausted. I guess that could be a reason I am feeling a little less myself.
Cooking for people has always been a way for me to communicate or show my love. I need this back in my life, I need to give more, and I need to create more.
I have also officially decided to set my personal training test AFTER surgery in order not to stress myself out more. I just want to be as healthy as possible going into surgery and give myself more time to study when I will be laid up. It will give me something to do 🙂
This weeks weekly 5
- sell/send out wristbands.
- Ebay
- Up my Cardio
- More sleep
- Stop letting perfection paralyze me.
Confessions of a Transman 